“Not
forgiving someone is like drinking poison and
expecting the other person to
die” - Unknown
I recently posted a video on Facebook of a family gathering over
45 years ago when I was only 4 months old. In that video are the images of my
father and mother when they were young and in love. It was before all the
violence and brutality, before all the pain.
My Status
Update:
“This is a
video that I watched years ago. My uncle posted this yesterday. Many in it have
since passed away. First time I have seen it in 20 years. That Baby is me! It
was both a sweet memory and also a bitter one. My parents are in it and they
were so young and my dad so handsome. They seemed in love then and my father
was happy. Watching this video just makes me forgive him even more. I love my
Father even though he hurt me so bad. I forgive you dad you did what you did
because of your own hurt and pain as a child. My parents are the Yellow Outfit
(Mom) and the White T shirt, Jeans and Penny Loafers (Father). They are the
ones on the teeter totter.”
After posting this I received several comments from folks who have
endured similar pain and anguish from violations and abuse. Comments such as:
“How
can you forgive what he did?”
“I
could never forgive. I dream of murder and beating him badly.”
”
You have
more strength than I CW Seymore to have that compassionate for him. I respect
your choices on how you deal with this. I guess I’m still healing, as I don’t
think I could ever do that. I did not let my past a demons negatively affect
how I parented and protected my kids. I also have not figured out how to
forgive....and frankly I don’t see how that makes me feel better by letting my
parents off the hook.”
I responded by explaining that Forgiveness and Compassion
did not occur overnight and that it was a process coupled with years of
counseling; my faith in the Lord and through Compassion – understanding and
feeling his pain from childhood and how he was abused badly himself. He had so
much anger and rage from those experiences and Yes I do not condone his behavior and wish my past wasn’t my past. But
I see a deeper picture as to why he abused. Could he have controlled it? I
believe he could have. Did he? No!
But my compassion and forgiveness of him now as an adult has set me free giving
me wings to fly and freedom like I have never known.
Definitions
as defined by Webster’s Dictionary:
Compassion: Deep
awareness of the suffering of another accompanied by the wish to relieve it. A
feeling of distress and pity for the suffering or misfortune of another, often
including the desire to alleviate it
Forgiveness: Is the
intentional and voluntary process by which a victim undergoes a change in
feelings and attitude regarding an offense; let’s go of negative emotions such
as vengefulness, with an increased ability to wish the offender well.
Forgiveness is different from condoning (failing to see the action as wrong and
in need of forgiveness), excusing (not holding the offender as responsible for
the action), pardoning (granted by a representative of society, such as a
judge), and forgetting (removing awareness of the offense from consciousness),
and reconciliation (restoration of a relationship).
I have heard others say that the forgiveness of my father is a
result of the Stockholm Syndrome. As a
youth yes I did exhibit Stockholm Syndrome tendencies but my forgiveness of my
father runs much deeper now. I did have a sick sense of loyalty and protection
for my abuser. But has I have matured a Spiritual Awakening and understand
occurred in my life.
For those unfamiliar with the Stockholm Syndrome here is a little
background to what it is and how it occurs:
The term, Stockholm Syndrome, was coined to describe the puzzling
reactions and emotional interactions of four bank employees who were held
captive by two criminals brandishing machine guns. On August 23, 1973, three
women and one man were taken hostage in one of the largest banks in Stockholm,
Sweden. They were held for six days (131 hours), by two ex-convicts who
threatened their lives by strapping them with dynamite and placing them in a
vault until they were finally rescued on August 28th!
After their rescue the hostages exhibited a shocking attitude
considering what they had just gone through by being threatened, abused and
fearing for their own lives. They supported and had compassion on their
captors. One woman even later formed a legal defense fund to aid in the
criminal defense! Two of the women eventually got engaged to the captors. Those
hostages became “Bonded” in a sick emotional sense!
After the Stockholm incident, many journalists, physiologist and
social scientists formed research as to whether the emotional bonding between a
captor and captives was a "freak" incident or if it was a common
occurrence in various oppressive situations. They discovered that it was such a
common phenomenon that it deserved a name. Thus, the label, Stockholm Syndrome.
In actuality, anyone can acquire the Syndrome if they are involved in
situations similar to these:
Concentration Camp Prisoners; Cult Members; Civilians in Chinese
Communist Prisons; The Pimp/Prostitute Relationship; Incest Victims; Physically
and/or Emotionally Abused Children; Battered Women; Prisoners of War; Victims
of Hijackings, and of course, Hostages. The following perceptions of those
directly involved as the “Victim” in horrifying situations is a guideline for
how the syndrome actually occurs:
•
A Perceived threat to survival and the belief that the captor/perpetrator is
willing to act on that threat
•
The captive's perception of a small act of kindnesses displayed from the captor
within the context of terror/fear
•
Isolation from other perspectives than those of the captor (Influenced by
Captor)
•
Perceived inability to escape and hopelessness
The “Stockholm Syndrome” is a survival mechanism; those that have
acquired it are not raving lunatics! We are people who were placed in life
threatening situations where we had to fight for our lives! We had no idea that
we were forming this sick bond between the abuser while it was happening! Every
syndrome has a list of symptoms or behaviors and the “Stockholm Syndrome” is no
exception. The most commonly accepted symptoms are:
•
Positive feelings by the victim toward the abuser/controller
•
Negative feelings by the victim toward family, friends or authorities trying to
help/rescue them from situation
•
Support of the abuser’s reasoning and actions for the situation
•
Positive feelings displayed by the abuser toward the victim
•
Supportive behaviors by the victim and at times aiding/helping the abuser to
escape
•
Inability to engage in behaviors that may assist in their release or rescue
Unforgiveness stunts growth and life in you. It poisons your
thinking, your emotions and your perceptions. I encourage all survivors of abuse
to consider how the unforgiveness in your life has affected it. Trust me on
this end it is the most freeing experience in the world. To release the control and have no pain,
regret, shame, guilt, anger, rage, sadness, depression, and to have a clear
consciousness and walk the road less traveled is a magnificent journey.
As the New Year begins I urge you to take a closer look at the
unforgiveness in your life towards your abuser. When you don’t forgive you
give power to that person who abused you! You may think that by not forgiving
them that you are hurting them. YOUR NOT! You’re only destroying yourself with
rage and anger. I know the effects of unforgiveness! I know how it affects
every fiber of your being down to the most inwards parts that few see. Where
that rage and anger is so pent up that it turns into depression and a downward
spiral that is hard to pull yourself out of. I KNOW!! Because I KNOW is the
very reason why I am writing my thoughts on this and to you!
To quote Wael Abdelgawad:
“Forgiveness is not for the weak. Being able to forgive those who have
wronged you is a mark of spiritual strength and confidence. When you forgive,
you grow, your heart begins to heal, your back straightens up, and your eyes
clear so that you can see the road ahead. Anger is a spiritual sickness; but
when you forgive you Live!”
“Get rid
of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form
of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just
as in Christ God forgave you.” -Ephesians 4:31-32 NIV
Happy
2015!!
Abuse Author: “Shards of Glass” https://www.amazon.com/author/cwseymore
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